This is the last of a series of reports by Bakarat, an asylum seeker detained in Malta
17th March 2014
Thoughts before deportation.
Life will give you all the steps you need to climb wherever you want, however it goes both upwards and downwards: the latter take the shape of frustration, depression, poverty, persecution and hunger. In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned (so far) about life: It goes on.
“It’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it is harder to give up when you know it is everything you want”
It’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it is harder to give up when you know it is everything you want. We all feel lost from time to time. Society has a way of beating us down with its arbitrary, life rules and expectations. Just when we think we have it nailed, someone pulls the step from below us and we end up with a crossing realisation that actually we don’t have it all figured out. Questions arise and you find yourself doubting your very existence.
Every moment in my life is an experience. We can either choose to learn something from them or let them pass us by, year after year. I have made a conscious effort to stay curious and see the good. Life is a series of sprints. You rarely have regret when you have the courage to fail. My state of mind is the most important factor in my life, whatever the outcome is.
Some say death is real, danger is fear, live it or die trying. I didn’t die trying, I survive by trying.
“I didn’t die trying, I survive by trying.”